"MrDiamond" [6:23 PM]: so, what happened? did he flake completely?
MsPsyched1 [6:23 PM]: No I heard from him yesterday and twice today
MsPsyched1 [6:23 PM]: although I havent seen him since I dropped him off yesterday
"MrDiamond" [6:24 PM]: and.....
MsPsyched1 [6:24 PM]: nothing really
"MrDiamond" [6:24 PM]: did he have a good reason to ditch you?
MsPsyched1 [6:24 PM]: He just said that stuff happened with his son
MsPsyched1 [6:24 PM]: and he had to go and pick him up
"MrDiamond" [6:24 PM]: sounds like a load of bullshit
MsPsyched1 [6:25 PM]: this is coming from the same person that said yesterday to calm down, its his son and you would do the same
"MrDiamond" [6:26 PM]: emergency is one thing. something happeneing to his son that sounds mondane is something different
MsPsyched1 [6:26 PM]: also supposedly he cant reach his ex to even let her know all this happened
"MrDiamond" [6:26 PM]: and you are buying all of this, right?
MsPsyched1 [6:27 PM]: why do you have to say that?
MsPsyched1 [6:27 PM]: like that?
MsPsyched1 [6:27 PM]: like I am fucking stupid or something
"MrDiamond" [6:27 PM]: becuase it all sounds like a load of bullshit. straight from the cow's ass
MsPsyched1 [6:27 PM]: why is that?
"MrDiamond" [6:28 PM]: if you are questioning this, then you are giving him the benefit of the doubt
"MrDiamond" [6:28 PM]: S U C K E R
MsPsyched1 [6:28 PM]: that's not completely true
MsPsyched1 [6:28 PM]: you know...I love you do death...but fuck you
"MrDiamond" [6:29 PM]: I KNOW
"MrDiamond" [6:29 PM]: i am an ass
"MrDiamond" [6:29 PM]: i would dump him and move on
MsPsyched1 [6:29 PM]: That is something for me to think about
"MrDiamond" [6:30 PM]: i hope so. you are going to get burned again
"MrDiamond" [6:30 PM]: and i dont want that. i want you to be happy
"MrDiamond" [6:30 PM]: =)
"MrDiamond" [6:30 PM]: i love you
"MrDiamond" [6:30 PM]: =)
MsPsyched1 [6:30 PM]: then why is it so hard for you to not see the failure in everything?
"MrDiamond" [6:32 PM]: why is it soooooo easy for you to believe in something when you know it is destructive
MsPsyched1 [6:33 PM]: how is it destructive? You know, every relationship I have been in, you see failure right from the start. You have never seen the two of us together, you have never met him...he is not generally like this
"MrDiamond" [6:38 PM]: well. it is clear you are going to defend him. like you defended all of the rest
"MrDiamond" [6:38 PM]: like "Pitcherboy"
"MrDiamond" [6:38 PM]: or "MrBitchOnABike"
"MrDiamond" [6:38 PM]: and the one before
"MrDiamond" [6:38 PM]: and the one before....and so on and so on
MsPsyched1 [6:39 PM]: But that's my choice, my decision to make
MsPsyched1 [6:40 PM]: I am not defending him, I think he is partial bullshit
"MrDiamond" [6:40 PM]: this is a redflag issue like the rest. when you dont see them, you get hurt. when you see them, but CHOOSE to ignore them, then you get hurt and feel stupid. it is a pattern with you
MsPsyched1 [6:41 PM]: so what?
"MrDiamond" [6:41 PM]: why waste your time with this loser, when you can be looking for the guy who is right for you and avoid getting hurt
MsPsyched1 [6:42 PM]: and I always get back up, brush it off and move along...would be no different
"MrDiamond" [6:42 PM]: no
"MrDiamond" [6:43 PM]: when you bend metal, you can never get it perfectly straight again. same with you. although you are resiliant, every time you get hurt, you are somehow changed and different. i am afraid that some guy is **really** and somehow change you to the point, that I may no longer recognize you anymore
"MrDiamond" [6:44 PM]: ***really** going to hurt you^
MsPsyched1 [6:45 PM]: I appreciate your concern
"MrDiamond" [6:47 PM]: why do you get like this?
MsPsyched1 [6:47 PM]: get like what?
"MrDiamond" [6:47 PM]: are you so desperate for any type of affection, that you will believe any bullshit presented to you in the hopes that it may be someone genuine? no one genuine proposes to you after a few weeks
"MrDiamond" [6:48 PM]: can't you see?
"MrDiamond" [6:48 PM]: this is a self-esteem issue
MsPsyched1 [6:48 PM]: You know what...this conversation is over
"MrDiamond" [6:49 PM]: i am sorry if what i said seems over the top, but stop for a moment and look around you. see what is happening to you. this is getting serious
MsPsyched1 [6:50 PM]: This is my life...Its my choice to do what I want with it.
MsPsyched1 [6:50 PM]: At first I appreciated your concern, but then it crossed over into something that it doesnt need to be
"MrDiamond" [6:50 PM]: well. when this "Pitcherboy" clone hurts you again...... i dont want to hear about it
MsPsyched1 [6:51 PM]: its like you wont be content until I say I am breaking it off with him
MsPsyched1 [6:51 PM]: and you know what, you wont hear about...because I can more than see you arent wanting to be supportive...you just want to point out all of my mistakes and show how this will be no different
MsPsyched1 [6:52 PM]: I never said I beleived him or will stay with him...all I said is that I am going to do what I want
"MrDiamond" [6:52 PM]: i want to be supportive
MsPsyched1 [6:52 PM]: no you dont
MsPsyched1 [6:52 PM]: you never are
"MrDiamond" [6:52 PM]: lol, what?
"MrDiamond" [6:52 PM]: i cant believe you just said that?
MsPsyched1 [6:52 PM]: You point out every possible failure from the beginning
"MrDiamond" [6:53 PM]: you should benefit from a little wisdom
MsPsyched1 [6:53 PM]: there you go...pointing out my mistake and rubbing my nose in it like a dog trying to teach it a lesson
"MrDiamond" [6:53 PM]: ummmm, no
MsPsyched1 [6:54 PM]: I dont need that
MsPsyched1 [6:54 PM]: not right now
"MrDiamond" [6:54 PM]: more like defending my position
MsPsyched1 [6:54 PM]: there is nothing for you to defend...
MsPsyched1 [6:54 PM]: understand that
"MrDiamond" [6:55 PM]: well. whatever. apparantly you are mad at something and projecting it onto me
MsPsyched1 [6:55 PM]: That is so not true
MsPsyched1 [6:56 PM]: I am just sick of you pointing out every mistake I make and yelling "I told you so"
MsPsyched1 [6:56 PM]: I dont need that
"MrDiamond" [6:59 PM]: i am not doing that. this guy is BAD news. i know it. i feel it. something bad is going to happen. i know it
MsPsyched1 [7:00 PM]: Dont think I am not prepared for something to happen
MsPsyched1 [7:00 PM]: you dont even know him
MsPsyched1 [7:00 PM]: you know nothing about him
"MrDiamond" [7:00 PM]: i knew nothing of the others, and i knew
"MrDiamond" [7:00 PM]: why would this be different
MsPsyched1 [7:01 PM]: what if its not? What if it is? What does it matter?
"MrDiamond" [7:01 PM]: it matters because you will get hurt
MsPsyched1 [7:01 PM]: so what?
MsPsyched1 [7:01 PM]: Its my life...
MsPsyched1 [7:02 PM]: whether I choose to stay with him or not is irrelevant at this point
"MrDiamond" [7:03 PM]: ok
"MrDiamond" [7:03 PM]: live and learn
MsPsyched1 [7:03 PM]: all that I am saying is that you could be "I am sorry Tracey, I am sorry that this happened to you" and just fucking drop it...but no, you feel the need to drag on how I always make mistakes and how you are always right
MsPsyched1 [7:04 PM]: I dont need that right now
"MrDiamond" [7:05 PM]: actually, i am sorry that this is happening to you. and i wish he never entered your life or hurt you.
MsPsyched1 [7:05 PM]: I am a big girl
MsPsyched1 [7:06 PM]: I appreciate your concern, really I do
"MrDiamond" [7:06 PM]: :::BIG HUG:::
MsPsyched1 [7:06 PM]: thanks
"MrDiamond" [7:06 PM]: i know i am an ass
"MrDiamond" [7:06 PM]: and i do not always approach things in the correct way
"MrDiamond" [7:06 PM]: but i mean well. i adore you
"MrDiamond" [7:07 PM]: and i am trying in my best way to be a good friend
MsPsyched1 [7:07 PM]: I know, but right now I need someone to be supportive...no matter what I choose to do
MsPsyched1 [7:07 PM]: which I havent decided yet
"MrDiamond" [7:07 PM]: good luck to you either way you go
MsPsyched1 [7:07 PM]: but when I do I dont need someone telling me how much of a mistake I made
"MrDiamond" [7:07 PM]: but just a word of advice
"MrDiamond" [7:08 PM]: before you take him back, you need the diamond in advance and it is non-refundable, lol. after all, it is all about hte jewles, lol
MsPsyched1 [7:08 PM]: I dont care about all that, you know me
"MrDiamond" [7:09 PM]: i am just trying to make sure that you get something out of it, lol
MsPsyched1 [7:09 PM]: I know
Geez-um! All I wanted to do was get my mind off things and come online, maybe check my email. I did not need that.
He always does that to me. I didnt need someone shaking a finger at me...I needed a shoulder, an ear, something. But not that.
The part that he failed to mention is that he is guilty of a few dents in this armor from back when we were dating. Yeah, so quickly he forgets.
He does this with every person that I date. He points out the person's intentions and finds failure right away...without even meeting the person.
I think its past my bedtime...or at least it should be.