As you can see by the previous two entries...I had way too much time on my hands today. Today was abnormally long. I think I may have even dozed off on the phone today at work. Just kidding. I came back from lunch to find my desk being moved around. I dont mean the desk as a whole, I mean all the little things that were on it. My new keyboard and mouse were being installed and apparently it didnt fit where the old ones were. I am a very teritorial person. Dont touch my shit and everything will be okay.
After work, I met up with "Ms2inchman" for dinner. We had a really good conversation that opened my eyes to alot of things. We were talking about how I wanted him to stay. She's right! I would only be holding him back and its selfish for me to even think of it. Not that I think he would stay for me anyway. He deserves to go off and be the best that he can be. Who am I to want to take that away from him? He needs to go make his dreams come true. I just wish that I could be a part of them.
So I ended up staying in tonight. I have this wierd pain in my neck and I dont know what its from. I dont know if its MS related or not. I do know that I am so very sick and tired of being sick and tired. I really wanted to go out tonight but to even turn my head felt as if someone were stabbing me in the neck with a ginsu knife.
Also, I am so very lucky as my careless did not catch up to me...this time. Next time I might not be so lucky.
So here I am having a hard time falling asleep. My mind keeps racing about so many things...money, love, health, friends...you name it. I really want to go to bed. I think I am going to try this one more time.
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You are my angel flying too close to the ground-so leave me if you must but I will never forget my angel flying too close to the ground-I'd rather see you flying than to see you down!